Phoenix
by Dale J. Sprague
White Papers
Divinity
We are self aware. We become aware of our own existence. If success and leisure does not facilitate it later in life, being stared at, brow beaten, or dotingly praised..one's attention drawn to themselves most certainly will turn the eye inward. And then, like prickly spines of darkness pressing upon one's form..what is the purpose of life? What is the mission, the program? Que pasa? Who am I? Why am I here? Why should I be here?.why anything at all?! These are the queries of one who has become very aware..that one is alive.
Once so born, for a general answer found, individuality must be sacrificed. While this cannot be, general answers are nevertheless sought. Each quest, a subtle pain, but for our purpose here, questions are more important than the answers because such existential queries, once posed, represent a special event. The eye has opened. One has embarked on their own. One feels alone, but equally free. And as a free thinker, at least initially, one has as much existential authority as any one else, self aware, and enjoys the pleasure of thinking in a boundless space..all of which continues as long as this pleasure continues to out'weigh the inevitable consequent...pains of isolation, independent. Self directing, self programming, self consciousness a'new burdens the answers to existential queries with the requirements of its own want. And eventually, answers need not be so general perhaps. Self'directing, not so exclusive, perhaps self'programming, not so firm, or self'consciousness so long present. Just enough to feel sufficiently unique, and belonging to one's own time. This is enough for the pilgrim wise, who knows through anyone's eyes self aware, that in those eyes is a supernatural thing, and to reiterate the inalienable canons of the wise...anyone self aware, is no more or less eternal than anyone else self aware.