Phoenix
by Dale J. Sprague
Op. 14 Mantra of Love
What is in mind lives brightly.
What is in soul is very old and wise and
does not speak. What is in heart, treasures of
wisdom we seek, and these roses,
many plus one for love to keep
Within me a memory from ancient times became a calling. I live eternities waiting, hearing its sweet voice from a'far. This memory, bred in bone, I bear from world to world..one ending, another beginning. I opened myself. The new sun, radiant and beaming, cast down into my umbro'd soul, when I feel once again..it has begun. There can be only one
My first sense of love, its nature..elusive, warm, and sensual, created a magical moment, a feeling both simple and complex. Love is indeterminate, which is how love enables one to live in a world greater than one's self. Love is also the fire that warms, and by its light, see into heart and fathom soul. It is both the compass and mountain peak we seek. From peak to peak, love gives to love, the vessel empties, and with love in return, the vessel fills. Two vessels filling and refilling, the sangraals are full, and in love, heaven and earth is brought together...as above, so below, love and beloved, love returning doubles love, redoubling every pleasure, every sensation
The first sound of its voice, I felt it carry over a wide open sea, deep currents ruled by the moon, inflections of love endearing, waiting to journey. In love, the vast supernatural stars serve as a trifling muse, in passing..waiting for the next deep current of love, moving heart, mind, and soul. And I flow with it. We are upon the same sea. We catch the same wind..its destiny in my heart I trust. Loving, my soul magnifies, my heart treasures, my mind..its figments combust. From its light, I feel the wondrous spirit of life between us, permeating all around us. And if there should be a sudden change in direction, it is but us catching the wind deep in the night. And to whatever direction it may flow, it is of no matter..nor in whatever port we rest, because together we journey anywhere, any place others call home. Together, we are home
We embrace the night, but slumber, that dark knight spoils love, its silky pleasure, its dreamy face. Its victory though is but a hiatus enpassing, whereafter you, in my heart, awakens with me. The freedom that awaits you at my side can even give your imaginary form the same in my nights, imagining the presence of your sweet aura, your virtual flesh, soft and warm. Even from afar, we are heart to heart filling, more and more is willing. We are in the night, as the night so ordains, embracing, auras mingling, sweet subtle sting..spirit entwined, pleasures rising to oblivious heights our passions bring
Whatever seems crazy...is soul, sol, solely between us, being so far beyond our simple self'aware light. Love so high and unfathomably deep ever increases each time we meet on the shores of our paradise isle. It is scary...this sensation of falling, ascending, all at once. Falling, ascending...dimensions of myself expanding! Together as one, we are doubly enhanced. Apart as two, we are doubly enchanted. Ever enhancing, ever enchanting..yes, we are a little crazy. This rose is a little crazy. A little craziness, for we are beyond what we know, familiar with, Earth enclosed.. earthbound, isolated. Together, we maintain a fine tradition, make alive again, a great tradition!..the need to love, but without a little craziness, how can love be greater than us?..for it to guide us
In me, there is so much that wants, needs, desires...all at once. Loving, all I see, feel, taste..all becomes amplified, especially when enhanced. Loving in all the little ways I see, in all the great I can imagine, we toil happily with strength of purpose in the necessary mundane, and savor the sublime. Travel to the ends of the world! Together, we create our own time. We are timeless. Explore the ends of human mind. The silence between us..but ample space for us as one, and separate as two. Symbiotic, never. Watch water trickle down your skin..spread silky soap over. Comb your hair in a candle lit room. Spread over your body, fragrant emollients. By a flickering light, upon the stars in the heavens, we muse...mysteries, wonders, beauty. You and me, just be...the silence, our deep, together we sleep..and in those dreams, we play...gristly metaphysical things, a coffee cafe, night or day. I am drawn, I am forever drawn. We have been before, and will be ever more
We were once before, becoming now, and will be again. You then, pointed to the stars. I, to life on Earth. You then, with your star'filled soul inspired the life in me, a star'crazed traveler. The spirit of a tree extended itself to me because I saw its soul, as you inspired..a body with its roots deep into the darkness of Earth, its branches radiating, reaching out high above, holding together, an earthen body and a radiant golden star
We have been together, lived, and loved before. I am comforted by the warmth of our mutual giving we knew last..for then too, we knew we were once before, beyond the shore of a great sea, by which we lived, beyond the horizon of a great sea of space, in which we lived. Knowing we were also from other distant stars, many worlds we bring to this new Earth beginning. Our love is made of the substance of stars, their destiny, our love in its midst..our plenty savoring each life, each day, each night, celebrates a new one, in which once again we live
Dear mantra of love, life now ever mysterious, began self'aware, and later, self'knowledged. And soon after, I sought you, you far distant from me, to let you know, deep in your soul, I am here, on Earth, searching for you. And in my search, was I readily deceived by solitary attributes in those who proved to be someone other than you. An all'consuming passion is not an irritating mote in the eye...it's a blinding beam! Yet, with each beneficiary, after discovering you not there, forsaken I've never felt..for I sensed you yet, after so many mirages and impending grief..for each, suspending disbelief. Within the throws of self imposed fiction, in fantasy I would remain, my rapture for what was not there would sustain, until heart and mind are compelled to bare itself, to pull the beam and see the light
I remember. I remember awakenings upon Earth, many and distant, upon which I once spread supine for my arms to embrace it. And another time, high a'top a great tree, in a deep nighted moon shining, moonglow made trees visible to me. The wind through them, I sat listening. At one with the wind in their midst, its spirit entered me, through me, and beyond. It carried my nighted heart..."if only I could be the wind," and wander more freely in search of you
Who are you? for whom I eternally search throughout the galaxies of stars. Who are you? whose voice floods my mind, rocks my heart, rubs my soul. A deep haunting canon awakens me from reluctant sleep. Who are you? whose every thought soars in mind..the bounds of my mind, unbounded for you. Who are you? whose spirit here and now, ever'seeking the light, ever'ready to give light wanting, whose spontaneous outpouring flows with the strength of a great river separating rainbows undulating, upward moving toward an airy abyss. And ahead is a brilliant sun, it golden essence assuring that all can be revealed..is available to be known. Who are you?..a song without words deep in soul. I hear love, its purity, its need to love to exhaustion. Who are you?..the one with whom I am with..from life to life, spirit to spirit, gift to gift. We love the same way. We need the same. You are the one with whom I can be freely..to the satisfaction of heart, mind, and soul
And who am I?..a dreamer in search of gold, who in youth gathered rocks for their beauty..collecting irridescent illuminations in maturity. I've traveled far..many times into my own event horizons. Imploding, exploding, I've seen the best and worst of human condition. From these visions, black and white, I ever'learn their colors in all that lives and grows. I want to soar with you in mind. Search the caves through the darkness of humankind. Save the aroma of montane heather made greater, us together. Dip our fingers in the sea. Anoint one another with its salted primordial essence. Feel together, warmth of each other, body and feelings said and unsaid, love carried from afar through a rose so red. Who am I?..the one for you to keep, my love so steep, to fill your heart, mind, and woo your soul so deep
Over ancient memories are new ones made. We are already made. It is inevitable, we shall once again be together. A life given, through death and dearth driven, we bring to each other, a heart cleaved long ago. Its memory in my soul, stirs from its sleep. Through your eyes, the sun will rise, and a new day will begin the moment we meet. And in its dawn, to each other, our hearts and souls open. Two halves of a heart surfeit, yet two independent and complete, our bodies meet, through which our spirits, otherwise hidden, enlighten and warm. My body form, conforming to yours. My spirit, gentle'd for yours. Oblivious to day or night, my cheek presses against your willing breasts, I cup its essence with my hand, full of love to give. Together, I feel your gentle spirit moving. I love its silky presence, its radiance..and for a sweet eternity, we shut'out the world. It has been so long. For you, I wait through eternities. My life so deeply nighted, occasionally awakens to what is so dear, and sees you from a'far. I wait to draw you near
In my heart, I've been stirred, I am moved. I have no love to prove..for you see me clearly. A life'bound mortal waiting to give. A simple caress, my affection I want to express. My night has carried the deepest unknowns. What would otherwise be dark and dank becomes sweet and warm just with the memory of your charm. Instead of sleepy unrest and soul uncertain, an unbroken sky fills with light. From horizon to wide horizon, I see you there..silken hair freely arrayed..eyes full, love of life..skin, supple and warm
Love mantra, under an open sky, you are my guide. I shall always need you, for you to be at my side